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thirst
plagues me
torments my calm
ruins peace of mind
tremendous desire pervades my bones
razor blades lacerate my milky eyes
brain stem throbs like a withered root
all i want is one more intoxicated moment
all i want is one more ecstatic cresting wave
all i want is the beauty of fervent feeling forever
thirst runs rampant in my desolate brain like frantic fevered vermin
lust for drunkenness writhes through brambles of consciousness from dawn to dusk
moonlight has lost its luster and coyote howls have become screams of demons
i am split asunder by the thundering blade of clarity that exposes my weakness
i shudder under the weight of the knowledge of time and its passionless lethal grip
my ability to love is hamstrung by the discord that rages within my bleak denuded soul
i feel forsaken and lost as i am set adrift on an ocean of sobriety without sails
i ache for tranquility and lightness of being but i am severed from this peace by ubiquitous need
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GJK
3DEC14
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poems by GJK 