Archive for January, 2012

the problem is

Posted in New Poems, poems 2012 with tags , , , , , on January 31, 2012 by GJK

there aren’t any drugs left

not the ones i want

anyhow

i am bereft

my guts ache for

a time and place

irretrievable

mind screaming for languor and release

from constant contracting worries

i forget to breathe

i want whiskey goddammit

want weed

LSD

AMT

anything

get me out of here!

disgusted by life

by the world

by myself.

the problem is

always the same.

  

GJK

21JAN12

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my mind is

Posted in New Poems, poems 2012 with tags , , , , , , on January 31, 2012 by GJK

my mind is a swarm of

i do not know,

blistered, bleak, beleaguered

rotten soft and ashen,

sullied, defiled

somehow sometimes joyous

my mind is a beetle

a bug

a god damned bug

(a miraculous boot-heel thunders down)

the beetle doesn’t –

the beetle can’t –

understand.

shattered,

i begin.

 

GJK

13JAN12

home bound

Posted in New Poems, poems 2012 with tags , , , , , , on January 31, 2012 by GJK

tearing down my walls

one sinkful at a time

i have learned these chores

of keeping a home

are indeed an act of love

i have watched a smile bloom

with each load laundered and folded

i am beginning to be

a home-maker, and

for the first time,

without a festering resentment

and guilt that i am not the one

bringing home the bacon

but i can tell you now

i finally understand what it is

to be a husband.

i too am a dishrag

but for me it is new

i still wear a grin about it

even as i scrub cat-puke from the carpet

and shovel the driveway

even as i write this

i grin

as my back groans

i refuse to bemoan my own shortcomings

i’m letting go

of worry

of regret

i’m letting go

and letting you know

i haven’t forgotten laughter or smoke,

or arduous lessons learned

in frozen forests and forsaken back roads

i haven’t forgotten

and i ask of you only

to carry on

in your way

in that way which i admire

and

have learned

so much

from.

i have some joy for you,

i hope to soon deliver.

GJK

31JAN12

3:36am